Newness

I want to fill you in about how it's been so far. And what's coming.

Because I feel that every time there's something big or new or beautiful, I just have to put it out here. In this little corner of the world that I can revisit over and over (when time permits).

Here goes.

Looking Back

2019 had been a blur. I was busy with my two-under-two and trying to keep my head above water. That was that in a nutshell.

2020 for the most part had been all about going through the motions of stop-and-go, of crossing hoops, of trying and failing. And learning.

The pandemic forced us to live out our lives from home without much reprieve from the stresses of childcare and work. It was a shared journey for many, one that is tough to find solace in while knee-deep in chaos. But that year also marked the time I embarked on a different journey.

I tried my hand at starting a business with my family. It was all-consuming, tiring, but enjoyable. I gave it my 100% given the limits of my time.

But it didn't work out. To this very day, I still feel a pang of regret whenever I am reminded of the business we tried so hard to get going.

However painful, that chapter is closed for now. I bring with me from that experience lessons I never would have learned anywhere else. Lessons gained at a considerable expense, that earned me a thicker skin to face failures as they come.

At the home front, my husband and I have become an even more united front in keeping our home a safe and comfortable place for our precious babies. I can't think of anyone else I would like to spend a lockdown with (plus our 2 rambunctious kids!) than him. Turns out, we really do like each other that much.

Looking Ahead

The year 2021 looks like a hectic year. Where before I had more or less a flexible schedule afforded by my freelance work, I have to be strict in time management now that I've committed to a full-time role.

Yet I find myself eager to take it on.

Like what I've always done, I'll stretch, knead, and roll with the changes and ultimately, adapt. Without ever losing sight of what truly matters, and why I do it: being a good mother to my beautiful children and a loving wife to my one and only.

It just so happens that I feel a sense of wholeness and pride in being able to produce more written work, get better at my chosen path, and generate value in that.

It's early days. The road is long. And I'm cautiously skipping along, armed with the resolve to carry on.